It all started
with a tear
a separation, a leaving
Are you strong enough to break?
sturdy enough to give in?
to melt away?
Its ok if you are not,
if you curl up in a ball
hugging your knees to your chest
wrapping your body around the unbearable pain
protective sheild of your back turned out
eyes closed, blind to anything more
lost in your own universe
of hurt and harding to protect yourself
Are you strong enough to stop
resisting?
to face
the ugly truths?
the beautiful truths?
the lies?
Face the sneering lips of hate
face your life filled with fear and lonliness
face the bombs shattering lives
face the hopeless circle and smallness
time eating away at your teeth and eyes.
that all you love will die.
See your hands changing
turning
like leaves in the fall
see your beautiful body
drying
ready to fall to the ground
to break apart and crumble into the dirt again.
One more beauitiful time
play your fingers
upon my body
the melody we have never forgotten
until you melt me into the sheets
through the mattress
through the wood of the floor
and the structure of the building
down threw the cement of the basement floor
back into the cold clay beneath
push me deeper still
push my back through the depth of the earth
back into the fiery core
that melts away my turtle shell
protective coating
sears it off
burns right through me
a fire that eats away through my back to enter my heart,
melding, feeding, the pain
that knows
i am nothing
i am everything
and I am going back
back
back into the earth.
Perhaps they are right
there is such a thing as reincarnation
and one day you will be born again
as a lizard
you will crawl over this earth again
slowly, your body strong and sturdy
and perhaps one day you will, feeling the cool breeze,
turn your head
slowly
and your eyes will turn to me
you will see me
a glorious tree
with a million leaves glittering
fluttering
flashing, graceful and green
in the sunlight
and you will again wonder at my beauty
and we
will love
again
