I am still here
The game
cinnamon, paint,
chickens we do not need, gardens that do not feed us
We keep shuffling forward
Playing at house and peace and learning
But I am still here
Even if I can save no one
Not even myself
Even if my best is not good enough
Even as in distant lands the war rages
Even as our houses crumble and we
and our neighbors
shoot ourselves up
With whatever we can get our hands on
Electric dreams, virtual hugs
Cans, viles, pipes
of temporary rightness
Maybe one day i will be bold
And sunshine will flow from my lips and fingertips
Or i will fly from a bridge up
Up into the either
But today I, you,
we have made it through another day
Even as my world crumbles into craziness
Or I see the craziness of how our world was created
How futile to be born just to fight dying
Crazy crazy people
Give up the fight
You can not win
Kneel down
Kneel down
Kneel down and give up
Caste aside the illusions of what our enemies are
Cast aside your fight
Oh great being we so want you to exist
To save us from meaninglessness.
Oh sweet belief
Come down and kiss us
Carry this burden for us
But if i let go
Let go deep
Deep into the gorge
Of the pain,
there,
For an instant I feel relief
There i see again
I am still here.
Again I taste the bitter sweetness
And tomorrow I may stand
Waiting before the sunlight
Knowing i do not know
I will step forward
