I am still here

 

I am still here

The game

cinnamon, paint,

chickens we do not need, gardens that do not feed us

We keep shuffling forward

Playing at house and peace and learning

But I am still here

Even if I can save no one

Not even myself

Even if my best is not good enough

Even as in distant lands the war rages

Even as our houses crumble and we

and our neighbors

shoot ourselves up

With whatever we can get our hands on

Electric dreams, virtual hugs

Cans, viles, pipes

of temporary rightness

Maybe one day i will be bold

And sunshine will flow from my lips and fingertips

Or i will fly from a bridge up

Up into the either

But today I, you,

we have made it through another day

Even as my world crumbles into craziness

Or I see the craziness of how our world was created

How futile to be born just to fight dying

Crazy crazy people

Give up the fight

You can not win

Kneel down

Kneel down

Kneel down and give up

Caste aside the illusions of what our enemies are

Cast aside your fight

Oh great being we so want you to exist

To save us from meaninglessness.

Oh sweet belief

Come down and kiss us

Carry this burden for us

But if i let go

Let go deep

Deep into the gorge

Of the pain,

there,

For an instant I feel relief

There i see again

I am still here.

Again I taste the bitter sweetness

And tomorrow I may stand

Waiting before the sunlight

Knowing i do not know

I will step forward